A Better Week

 

I must say that I was a bit overwhelmed at the beginning of this week.  Looking at my diary and seeing that I had so many commitments.

But I have coped well and can happily report that I have even had a couple of ‘good’ days in amongst the chaos.

I have been Blessed to have visits from family and friends and we even managed to go out and visit my Aunty who gave me just the dose of medicine the doctor ordered: lots of love, cuddles and encouragement.  It’s amazing how being comforted when you feel so down can lift you up and boost those happy hormones 🙂

I had appointments with both my Lyme Dr and a new Naturopath this week.  They are working together on my case (as it is a little complicated).  This is very reassuring as the lines of communication are open and the treatment for Lyme is a holistic one.  Your body needs to be in optimal condition before starting the heavy duty antibiotics or the ramifications can be horrendous (as I learnt when we tried to hit the bugs hard with full doses of abx and I thought I was going to die).

The Naturopath is amazing.  She is a beautiful soul and extremely knowledgeable.  We are working on a few priorities first.  I have to get my level of thyroid antibodies down, get my gut repaired and gut flora balanced,  open my detox pathways and decrease my inflammation.

It is now official that these little bugs are in my brain and nervous system.  This really scares me as I wonder if they will have any impact on my brain tumor.  I want that little bugger out ASAP, so getting my health back in order is a top priority for me.

I have started on some natural supplements and they taste shocking.  I was very nauseous at first, but that is subsiding, thankfully.  I will only increase from here.  I still have saliva and blood testing to do and depending on the results, I will be adding more sups to my daily list of concoctions.  I have also been told that I will need to IV chelation therapy.  This is rather daunting as it can take hours for the procedure.  Some people react poorly at first, but I am led to believe that once established, the results can be amazing.  I definitely like the word amazing! LOL

I don’t know how we are managing to make ends meet at the moment.  Hubby is taking care of the finances and I must say he is doing a great job.

It seems like the anti-depressant I started on a few weeks ago may be starting to kick in.  I haven’t been nearly as sad, although I still have quite high levels of anxiety.  At least I am not spending my days sobbing and desperate.  Great hey!

Well, I feel like this week we have accomplished so much.  We now have a treatment plan in place and I am coping much better at the moment.  I am trying so hard to focus on the positives and not how crappy I feel.  That can only be a good thing 🙂

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Struggling

 

I sit here and wish I could write wonderful, happy things about my life.  I try so hard to see my Blessings in every day.   But I am struggling.

The loss of Sunny really has had a huge impact on me and I still cry for her most days.  I think I will only find closure when I know she has been adopted by her ‘forever’ family.  We have planted bright flowers in the little garden she claimed as her own.   I look out of my bedroom window and smile when I see them.

My depression and anxiety are still severe and added to that the exhaustion and many complications of the Lyme disease, I am finding it very difficult to walk at the moment and this leaves me bed bound on many days.  I hate this and cry a lot over the simple tasks that I can no longer do.  Then I think to myself that I am lucky to be able to walk to the toilet, shower and make a cup of tea.  So many people are much worse off than me.  I try so hard to push through my days and if I manage to do housework or go out etc I feel so happy and proud but unfortunately, I usually crash the next day.  There is so much housework that needs doing……  I feel so guilty that I can’t cope.

In this coming week, I am going to see a Naturopath.  I have spoken to her and she sounds like she may be able to help me.  The treatment of Lyme is a holistic one and I am looking forward to meeting with her.  She is Lyme literate and I have been referred by a fellow Lymie.  Anything to give me some hope.  Hubby has said we wont stop until I get some relief and get my life back.  It is horrible to think this may take months or even years.  😦

On a happier note, my son saw his Lyme Dr this week and he was so pleased with his progress.  He is about 60% recovered.  Now THAT makes me happy 🙂  I marvel at the beautiful, caring, loving, witty man my son has grown to be.  I have so much to be grateful for.

My gorgeous son who has been my rock over the last two weeks. xx

My gorgeous son who has been my rock over the last two weeks. xx

There are so many people I need to thank for their support over the last two weeks.  Phone calls, texts, visits, cards and emails.  Where would I be without my caring family and friends?  I wish I could tell you all that I am well and happy as I know that is what you would love to hear.  Please hang in there with me,  I WILL speak those words one day.

Love and light to all who read this, Terri xxx