Christmas 2013

It has been a month since my last post and I can’t believe how fast time has gone.  As I had a lot of time on my hands, I managed to be quite organised this year.  My Christmas cards went out and I had my presents wrapped and under the tree with time to spare.  Thank goodness for online shopping!  I don’t know how I would have coped without it this year.

It is a very sad thing to say, but I really wasn’t looking forward to this Christmas.  Being so withdrawn, I knew that I had to socialise but my pre-emptive  anxiety caused me all sorts of problems.  It was only in the few days leading up to Christmas day that I actually started to think positively and reassure myself that I could get through.  Which I can happily say, I did. 🙂

We had lunch with Gary’s family and it was lovely.  Gary’s two sisters and niece took control and did all the cooking and organising.  It really took the pressure off us (Gary in particular).  We simply had to roll up and enjoy ourselves.  The food was delicious and I settled in to have a nice day.  Gary was able to relax, drink and be merry (thanks to Matt for driving us home) and seeing Gary so relaxed made me really happy.  Thanks girls for making it a wonderful day!

I think I have reached  a ‘stable’ level with my psych meds – well as good as it is going to get.  I have managed to push through on days where I thought nothing was possible.  I am sleeping better again and not so depressed or anxious.

My very brave nurse has been a willing passenger with me driving on a few of his visits and this is definitely helping my confidence.  It is a lot easier to drive with someone else in the car, but I still panic at the thought of driving alone or out of my safe, familiar suburb.  I am sure that the more I push myself to do so, my confidence will gradually return.

I am now on the full dose of my first Lyme med and so far the only side effect was a few really grumpy days.  I couldn’t believe how short and bad tempered I was.  It was only today that I looked it up and realised that this was a side effect of this med.  Luckily it has passed now.  Luckily I have a very understanding hubby also!

I did the most amazing thing on Boxing day.  I drove myself to the Boxing day sales and bought myself a new handbag and top.  The shopping centre was a bit further than I normally venture to and the shops were a lot busier than I really like.  But my determination to have a new handbag won out over the anxiety and wobbliness!  I crashed when I got home for about half an hour.  I was shaking and happily repeating “I did it, I did it”.  This was slightly annoying for hubby as he was engrossed in watching the cricket on tv lol.  I am so proud of myself.

I would like to thank my wonderful friends who popped in for a visit or kept my spirits up prior to Christmas via email.  Thank you for the lovely presents also.  I feel very spoilt and Blessed to have such amazing people in my life. xxxx

I wish you all a safe and happy New Year and for all who need a lift, let’s hope 2014 delivers!

I have a favourite song that I have listened to all year – my inspirational song called “I Was Carried’ by Roma Waterman.  So this beautiful Christmas image is significant to me and a reminder to keep my Faith.  If you are interested in hearing the song,  please click on this link.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjqnpIZYebw

I was lifted by the Angel's gentle hand...

I was lifted by the Angel’s gentle hand…